<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/11416096?origin\x3dhttp://untitledsong.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Monday, August 28, 2006

i'm positive that you did it, no matter how much i tried to convince myself that you didn't, and i don't know what to say but it sure tells a lot about you.

i won't allow myself to feel guilty ever again, because i can't quit associating negative things and you together now.

so goodbye, i am not nice. but i am not scared because i realized the only person i have to be true to is myself and i no longer have to care about the opinions anyone of you have about me anymore, because it's not even necessary in the first place. because i know i am a very lucky person who have people who stand by me, even if they may just be one or two, it's enough.

and i will try my best to study hard, not only because of eoys, not only because i need to, but because i want to. i admit i dislike studying, but it's gonna take up quite a part of my life, so i will make the best out of it. i shall stop getting influenced by my elder sister the lazy pig who doesn't study because i cannot afford to do so, i don't know what i want my life to be like yet (this is not an insult!). and i think i need to rub off some of my mugger characteristics of my eldest sister to survive nanyang and whatever killer stuff that is in store for me.

i am confident that i can do it because i am strong. i have a high threshold for pain now. :)

heaven on earth
1:01 am