Monday, April 11, 2005
howhowhow.
i can't make up my mind.
see.
i signed up for this japanese immersion programme FOR FUN cos i thought i won't get selected since i always seem to sleep during jap lessons.
but now that i need to go for the interview, i don't know if i should just flunk the interview or not.
not like i'll 100% pass but if i do then i cannot back out already.
first of all i really like to go japan. i really really want to go there la. somemore it'll be fun and it's like not always have this kind of thing one what. it'll be quite cool to go japan and have a host family. and it'll be enriching and i think my jap will improve.
BUTBUT. it's during the june holidays! which is badbadbad. what abt national schools next year? if i go then i'll most probably won't be in team although i badly want to la. judo is impt to me. somemore it's like that programme is not the only chance to go japan what. i can still go there next time. i wanna get into team. i want to be part of the team with peijin and tell her that we won't disappoint her like last year anymore.
peijin says she'll kick me out of the club if i go there. but i know the decision still lies in me.
howhowhow.
if only i pass the stupid interview, then go japan, and have a chance to practise judo there cos my host family opens a judo school.
HAHAHA. very funny.
yuck. and it sounds a bit like sir. yuckyuck.
whatever. i have now until 19 to decide. if i decided to flunk it, might as well just pon the whole thing.
hai. it's times like this that makes me feel stupid. and undecisive.
but i guess sacrifices have to be made. i must decide, which one is my priority.
ANYWAY, today was scary. reached the opp. ny bus stop at 7.26 and rushed to school. the traffic was madness. 9 min to get from the coro stop to ny stop. luckily i wasn't late.
sighsighsigh.
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